Well I'm getting up and about a bit more then the beginning of the week but I am still taking it very easy. I am really struggling w/ how I am supposed to "trust God" through this. I don't know what he expects of me? I mean, you stick your hand in fire, it hurts, and you remember not to do that again. I have such a history of loss, how can I forget that?

Basically nothing has changed in regards to the spotting. I'm going to have to make a decision about an upcoming ultrasound. Part of me would like to have it and know that the baby is ok, but part of me does not want to mess w/ a "good thing"? I'm a little worried about too many ultrasounds.. I'm worried about Abby's party coming up and being there for her. I may cancel and reschedule after the party sometime? for now it's one day at a time.

We are slowly getting ready for Abby's birthday this Friday. I can't believe my baby is going to be 3!! When Luke was 3 he seemed so old, but Abby seems so little to me still!

Well it's a beautiful day, I need to get off here and go sit outside a bit! Just trying to keep everyone somewhat updated.