A Mother's frusteration and prayer....

I'm so exhausted.. my head is spinning from this progesterone. My nose is stuffed up and draining down the back of my throat. Every single time I sit down to rest for just a few minutes someone in the house finds an incredibly good excuse to make me get up.. Abby consistently poops as soon as my butt hits this recliner and needs me to wipe her! never fail! the phone rings, or the package delivery man drops off a computer. I'm trying to hard to hold myself together and teach my preschool class tonight. I want to scream out "Lord, I'm trying to serve you! please give me a break!!!!!" it's already not easy for me, but to think w/ my head spinning, to rest for this baby w/ the demands my children find at every turn. I am feeling overwhelmed right now. Not to mention my belly is growing faster than I expected and my wonderful stretchy jeans that were supposed to last a few more weeks are already tight! :( So I throw on my pj's, only to receive a call minutes later that someone is coming to drop off a computer in 5 minutes and I have to change back into tight restricting clothes. I have bought fast food a few times to many this week, basically just to survive... but I feel guilty about that b/c it's not the best for my growing baby. Rich comes home, doesn't even take off his tie and picks up all the mess that I couldn't muster up the energy to do. I want to make this a happy place for him to come home to but my body fails me, and I'm exhausted. The kids constant complaints when asked to clean up their stuff and their constant demands fail to give me the recognition I feel I deserve as I push through and hold this place together. I am reminded of who I really serve, and I hope that God is smiling down on me, but Lord, could you please give me a break. Strengthen my body and allow me to do my job... allow me to be the Mom I long to be and enjoy this remaining time w/ my 2 before life is crazy w/ 3. Lord give me the energy to stay up and dig in to your Word, filling me up so that I can give back and be who you want me to be. Most of all give me patience w/ my struggles.

-Beth